Submitted by Rob on January 29, 2009 - 12:57pm.

I just needed to work through some stuff,
looking back at my life,
I really only loved the one that I still love,
And that would be my wife.

Before my head was so clogged,
that I couldn’t love myself,
how in the hell do you think,
I could love anyone else.

But I learned a lot,
In everything good and bad,
bad relationships,
bad friendships,
bad career moves,
BAD!

I learned to recognize ALL the signs,
when things just didn’t seem so…
There is just no foolin’ this brotha…
She just had to go…

It was written across her face,
her actions,
her everything,
it was so obvious,
you don’t know.
Again,
She had to go…

It was all right there for me to see.
At the time I still allowed others,
to fool and play with me!
It will never happen again,
just ask the powers of the Universe,
or maybe JUST ASK ME!

It all came to a head for a reason,
it worked out in the end,
a brother can’t be reborn,
until he’s met HIS end!

I wish it wasn’t painful,
but they say that’s how we grow.
If my life were still peaceful,
the things I would never know.

The inspiration for the poem came from on extremely painful breakup I went through with my girlfriend this past June. We broke up and it was so painful that no matter what I did the pain didn't go away.

It caused me to get on my knees and humbly ask God for acceptance of the situation and just to take the pain away. What happened next is something that I can't deny; God came into my life for the first time. He showed me that if I trust in Him, that everything will be alright, that I will always have what I need. I may not always get what I want, but I will always have what I need.

What I would never know, I would never have realized, is how much God loves and cares about me if I had not experienced the incredible pain of that breakup. I had to feel like I had died inside to truly find God. I thank God everyday for being there for me and for everything I have went through in my life, without all of these experiences I would not have the understanding that I have for His unconditional love for me and all people.

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